Best Taken in Measured Doses

My brother leaves today. He's been deported. The chances of seeing him again are pretty much zilch. He doesn't have easy/regular access to a phone and doesn't use the internet so once he boards that plane we're pretty much done.

When he came to tell me he was leaving he held out his arms for a hug, something he never does. I could tell he was trying not to get upset but I could hear the quiver in his voice.

Later that day I got news that my aunt had died.

Wednesday was a blur. I think I was in shock because I just kind of floated through the day telling people; oh yeah, aunt is dead. With no real emotional response.

Thursday I went to ask for a day off for her funeral and promptly busted out sobbing. Couldn't seem to stop, my poor boss gave me the day off with no hesitation but he looked quite alarmed. I'm the girl who never takes a day off, never misses a shift, never cries, never stops smiling.

I don't know what today will bring but I'm trying not to think about Lars and Aunty. I gotta' stay focused and get through the next twelve hours of work.

And that's my week so far.

I really should post here more often. Mainly I use my LJ to read other LJS and the like. :)

I do have something to say.

A NEW YEAR IS ALMOST HERE!

It's foolish to think there would be no wars, and no violence without religion. Religion is the excuse, not the reason. And if religion did not exist man would still find some excuse to incite wars and some other excuse to inflict pain upon fellow man.

That is simply the nature of the beast.

I cannot remember when I moved.
I am regretting more then ever having deleted my old journal.
DAMN ME AND MY IMPULSES TO PURGE.

Here's the deal.

I'm not terribly pretty. I'm plain at best, and kind of manish in my features at worst. I have terrible hair, I don't wear makeup, I'm frumpy most days and am chubby.

So...

could someone please explain why guys take one look at me and start flirting their asses off?

I don't GET it!

I have a date.
With a customer.
ARGH.

I must come off as so desperate... but anyway he was like: Sooo, wanna go out sometime? And my response?

SURE!

HAHAHAH. oh man.

Because it's too funny not to share.

So I'm driving down the street when suddenly the car in front of me stops. I watch with some confusion as the passenger of the car hops out, runs squealing across the road. There's a family walking their dogs and she makes a beeline for them, drops to her knees and starts frantically petting the dog while squealing: puppy, puppy, puppy! Then gets up, runs back to her car, jumps into the passenger seat and they drive off.

Meanwhile the poor family walking the molested dog are looking very disturbed.

HAHA. Oh man. It was so funny. I've never seen anything like that in my life.

You suck ass.

You bring Terminator Salvation in from Friday night to Tuesday night. WTF IS THAT? I work 9-9 until next SATURDAY which means I now can't see the movie because it starts at 9 and I work until 9:30.

Thanks dipshits.

SERIOUSLY, who plays a movie that short a time? Star Trek was in for THREE FUCKING WEEKS and Terminator gets 5 days???!!!!!

I'm not so good at this dating thing.

I refuse to judge people on appearance so I'll basically go out with anyone who seems reasonably intelligent, whether or not their physical facade appeals to me. Unfortunately what this leads to is two months of dating and me sitting there going; please don't ever touch me.

I've come to realize that I need to have some kind of criteria. I need to say no if I'm not physically attracted. But then the problem becomes the only men I've ever been attracted to are way out of my league.

I am not a pretty girl. I can't really afford to have such high standards. So I'm back at square one mentally... that is, willing to date any intelligent being who asks me out.

How is it after more than a year that I can still miss someone who did nothing but cause me grief and heartache?
Honestly, it's time to move on heart. Stop loving someone who never loved you.

All right, so, to me this sucked.

I don't know if they were necessarily sucky people but it was a sucky experience and left me with this face all night after ):

I have an odd hairdo. It's cut into three layers (top, middle, bottom) and each layer is a different color. Last month it was blue on top, cherry red in center and muted blonde on the bottom. It's fun, people think it's a wig, and most of the time the hairdo just gives people a good hearted giggle.

Anyway.

Two days ago I redyed the hair (the blue had turned to grey and I didn't like it) so it was brown on top, punk red in the center and neon yellow on the bottom. I figured it was better than BLUE, red and blonde.

So I'm ringing this guys order through and I had to turn my back to him a moment and suddenly he bursts out laughing. I glance back at him and realize he just spotted the hair. From the front I just look like I have brown hair with hints of red, so when I turned he got a burst of red and brilliant neon yellow. "Well, at least it's different!" He and the woman behind him, not realizing I was looking their way, share a look.

The woman rolls her eyes up, and he just keeps laughing.

After he left the woman could barely restrain her disgust. It was very clear that she was disapproving, or at least that's how it seemed.

I don't know if I'm being overly sensitive, but I've never had anyone laugh at me like that. ): Usually the responses are; Oh! HAHA, that's weird. But not continuous, loud laughter all the way out the door and scowling and thin smiles (from the woman).

( The Hair )

Stop this day I want to get off.

Brought to you by: Sick as a dog.

What does it mean when after a long walk you end up with a raging headache?

I'm guessing it means there were allergens in the air but gosh darn it; OW. OW OW OW.

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.

It's a horrible feeling when you realize you're being made fun of.

I've heard that you can kind of 'block' your livejournal from receiving/viewing comments from certain people. Now, obviously you can do this in your personal journal how does that work in other communities?

Because someone was being harassed on this community once and everyone was like; well, just block comments and you won't see them anymore no matter where you are and I was like: BUH? You can't DO that!

Can you?

*confused*

Sorry, random.

Let's see... having a shit day. Will expand upon that later if I feel up to it. :)

Writing this down here so I don't forget.

Seamus Hussey is the BEST NAME EVER!

I have not read the books and in fact REFUSE to after some of the excerpts I've seen. GODAWFUL MUCH.

However, I do want to see the movie. Because of Robert.

OLYMPIC QUOTES - OOPS!


Here are the top nine comments made by NBC sports commentators so far

during the Summer Olympics that they would like to take back:



1. Weightlifting commentator:

'This is Gregoriava from Bulgaria .

I saw her snatch this morning during her warm up and it was amazing.'



2. Dressage commentator:

'This is really a lovely horse and I speak from personal experience

since I once mounted her mother.'



3. Paul Hamm, Gymnast:

'I owe a lot to my parents, especially my mother and father.'



4. Boxing Analyst:

'Sure there have been injuries, and even some deaths in boxing,

but none of them really that serious.'



5. Softball announcer:

'If history repeats itself,

I should think we can expect the same thing again.'



6. Basketball analyst:

'He dribbles a lot and the opposition doesn't like it.

In fact you can see it all over their faces.'



7. At the rowing medal ceremony:

'Ah, isn't that nice, the wife of the IOC president

is hugging the cox of the British crew.'



8. Soccer commentator:

'Julian Dicks is everywhere.

It's like they've got eleven Dicks on the field.'



9. Tennis commentator:

'One of the reasons Andy is playing so well is that,

before the final round, his wife takes out his balls and kisses them...

Oh my God, what have I just said?'

I talk about my hair a lot...

last night I randomly decided to color (and yes I'll post pics this time but later).

I'm getting a small cut today, getting bangs.

Anyway, I decided to get black on top, red in the center and a hint of blonde at the back. It's kind of a blonde tail that winks as I walk away.

The black turned blue... I was delighted.I look like an American flag... kind of.

BUT, this morning I wake up to lumps, PAINFUL lumps all up the back of my neck and an itchy scalp like WOAH.

>.< From experience I know it'll last about a week. *sigh* Oh well... is worth it.